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August 31st, 2009

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June 23rd, 2009

07:13 pm - booooooobs. Grandpa says "Melissa, what do you want to do with your life?" Melissa thinks Gee, pops, I'd love to finish high school with a 40-26 figure. Then I could do to college and major in photography, but drop out after two years and become a pin-up model and spend my days getting my picture taken in my undies. Then I'd pop out a baby and be a tattoo artist like that one gal from LA Ink. Maybe then I'd open some chic retro burlesque club in a major city and spend my days watching people watch gals in their undies. Melissa says "I don't know yet." Current Mood: cheerful Current Music: REV 22:20... Puscifer

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June 8th, 2009

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June 3rd, 2009

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June 2nd, 2009

07:34 pm And away we go. I would bash my skull against the pavement if it would make things better. Sadly, the potential that I would become a vegetable is a slight upside to what I've got now. What have I got? Not very much. I've got apologies I need to make, and more ties to cut. I've got looming assignments and a method of relaxation that is now a job. I've got no one who knows me for me and can do nothing but push those who do away. I'd love to go back to the way things were. But that wasn't right either. Things weren't good then, and I wanted them to be like before the before. I'm watching my sink drip and it is entirely too calming. I don't think I like this. I don't think I like this at all. Sure. I'm complaining. I should just suck it up and wait out the next year and then maybe things will get better. I am so tired of waiting things out and seeing if they get better. Because they don't. Current Mood: aggravated

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May 30th, 2009

01:35 pm - Progression LAN Parties = The Good Energy drinks + LAN Parties = The Bad Tequila + me + energy drinks + LAN Parties = The Ugly Current Mood: tired

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May 20th, 2009

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May 3rd, 2009

12:38 pm - Sharon doll? So, I've decided to ignore everything my mother is worrying about and telling me not to do. I want Columbia. I don't care what she says. It's my education. If I screw up, then its a learning process. She's worried about not being taught by professors, but by professionals. But for whatever reason, that makes so much more sense to me, to be taught by someone who does not by someone who did. She's worried the city will eat me. Which I guess is understandable. But I think if I can handle a city the runs in a language I can't speak or read or understand, I don't think Chicago will be so bad. I'll be close to my people in West Lafayette, and Columbus isn't much farther than that. If my brother transfers, we'll be about 5 hours apart. I could be roommates with Becca! How awesome would that be? Like super awesome! Current Mood: excited Current Music: 10,000 Days... Tool

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April 25th, 2009

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April 18th, 2009

07:05 pm - Charlie. Do you know that feeling when you realize something is about to go horribly wrong but you cannot stop it? That little metal ball in your stomach? Yup. That's about how I'm feeling. I hate doing bad things to good people. Current Mood: nervous Current Music: Suicide... Bobby Gaylor

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April 5th, 2009

08:07 pm - Bar Talk Conversation between a friend and I in a very crowded, very loud bar. "I feel guilty. I know he wants to dance with me and stuff, but he's too awkward. I, on the other hand, I would just go grab him away from his beer." "Then why don't you?" "Because then that means I'm chasing him." "Sweetie, that's not chasing. That is you being the gazelle nibbling on the grass just in front of where the lion is sleeping." "What?" "Relationships are as follows: the stalking, the chase, the catch, the kill, and sustenance." "Do explain." "The stalking: Exactly what it sounds like. You have your eyes on someone and you watch their every single fucking move. You bide your time before pouncing. Then starts the chase, which involves some drunken make-outs or feeling-ups on the dance floor. The catch is then when you both admit to liking each other, and plan to start dating or whatever you want to call it. The kill is the three weeks that follow, in which physicality is the only thing that seems to matter. Sustenance is then the relationship that works its way past the carnal stuff." "What if there is no sustenance?" "Kill more gazelle." "So taking him away from his beer is ok?" "Yes." "You never read Jane Eyre did you?" "I prefer Discovery Channel." Current Mood: guilty Current Music: Darkness Takes Over... Nicholas Hopper

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March 23rd, 2009

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March 19th, 2009

03:56 pm - Things that need to be said "ASK ME TO PROM, DAMMIT." "You think just because I'm big, I'm some slut? Maybe you should get to know me first. Maybe you should understand that I'm a person." "No, I don't think you arguing with your boyfriend to get him to break up with you is ok." "Why is everyone else telling me that your interested in me?" "Talk to me. Get to know me. Don't assume you know everything about me just from one conversation." "I blame you for all of this." "Mom, I hate your chili." Current Mood: pissed off Current Music: Counting Bodies Like Sheep to the Rythm of the War Drums... A Perfect Circle

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March 14th, 2009

01:25 pm - Hills Weekendbreak I think I've gotten everything figured out. That's good, isn't it? In other news, I'm still bickering with my parents about getting my nose pierced. I'm losing. I should be studying right now. But I'm not. I'm really hungry too. I think I'm going to make me some ramen. Current Mood: curious

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March 9th, 2009

09:44 pm - How about Hong Kong? Frustration was thrown aside! Planning happened! Research was done! Found TUJ. Got excited at the fact that it was cheaper than any of my New York schools and it's in Japan. Theeeeeeeeeeen... Dad says no. Dammit. Current Mood: annoyed

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March 8th, 2009

02:52 pm - I am not going to IU I plan very little. I really see no point in planning, as things get in the way and nothing works out the way you want it to. But I've been planning for college since my 6th grade career project. I knew what I wanted to do and where I wanted to apply. And now I'm scheduling tours to schools that I know I cannot afford or can't remember why I was even interested in them. This is frustrating. Current Mood: cranky

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March 3rd, 2009

08:47 pm - 15 lessons learned in Kenya 1. Nothing gets between elephants and their water. Not even us. 2. Cleanliness is a sign of affluence. 3. There are no tigers in Kenya. Or polar bears. 4. Human carbonation is impossible. 5. If stranded in a Kenyan town for three hours, wear sunscreen. 6. A cow can be bought for 40 US dollars. 7. A wife is worth 40 cows ( wife = $1600). Men can have up to five wives. 8. Don't share your iPod with strangers. 9. Pools are a good substitute for showers. 10. HSM3 is DAMN catchy. 11. Elephants are pregnant for 2 years with one calf. 12. British officers are charming lads. Until you put a beer in front of one. 13. No such thing as a smooth Kenyan road. 14. Every time I go to Africa I am asked if I am up for wedding. 15. It's good to be traveling again. Current Mood: nerdy

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February 18th, 2009

04:24 pm - Feet say GOOOOOOOOOOOOOO The advertisement on the front page of my LJ was for buying your Russian wife. Wow. I'm going to Africa on Friday! Current Mood: silly Current Music: Good Morning Baltimore... Hairspray

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February 7th, 2009

07:32 pm I'm really thinking about changing my name. I spent a good thirty seconds trying to remember my name earlier today. That was embarrassing. Melissa. I dunno, it just sounds boring to me. Probably because I've been hearing it all my life. I'd go by my middle name instead. Arden. How many Ardens do you know? Not many. Plus, Arden Andrews, at least to me, looks better on a business card. Current Mood: accomplished Current Music: All time lows... Hellogoodbye

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February 3rd, 2009

03:07 pm - BFA/BBA Mom "What are you doing?" Me "Printing my Columbia application." Mom "Why? Early decision isn't for another 6 months." Me "I know." Mom "Why are you printing applications?" Noticing my stack of papers on the floor. Me "... because I like to?" Current Mood: anxious Current Music: Entropy Reigns... Kelley Polar

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